" I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise. "
" It scares me that I do not know about a lot of things. It’s so freaking terrifying when you sit down and you start asking yourself a gazillion questions. You begin to dissect one thought till it makes your mind bleed with worries. I always have this vast fear of the future that refuses to die inside my mind. A fear so strong that not an ounce of alcohol can destroy it. I fear mistakes and shortcomings. I fear the next millisecond the next nanosecond the next minute the next hour. I fear what they can consist of because what if one circumstance changes the illusions that I have living inside my head. I wish fear wasn’t so damn intuitive because sometimes I think of death being something wholesome, a cure to a disease.. something I do not fear. "